Is it just me or am I the only one who gets stuck in the checkout line behind the lady who feels the need to tell the cashier her entire life story. To ramble on and on AND on about why she is sending the fax which by the way is of no urgent importance and has something to do with a family tree. Meanwhile I am standing there holding a fax of a large order that I am trying to fax into the corporate office by a certain time so that it counts toward this weeks commission check.
I can not decide if I have just turned into a bitch from hell or if I am just so pushed for time lately that the little things set me off.
To be honest I think I'm having one of those single working Mom moments. You know the one where I just want to open a bottle of wine and sit in a corner and drink from the bottle moments. The moment where I just am tired. The moment where I break down and say to myself I can't do it all today. The moment where I completely ready to move in with Rock Star and have that help there. Knowing that after a nine hour work day, then fixing dinner, then running to Laine's volleyball game, then putting Evan to bed I could run to Walmart and buy birthday gifts at 10pm. As a single Mom I have to figure out where in my work day I can take an hour off to run to Walmart.
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
Sunday, September 23, 2007
A Scene From A Movie
I love movies, I love all types, ones that make me laugh, ones that make me cry, ones that provoke thoughts.
Maybe I love them because they remind me to slow down. Watching a story unfold of someone's life, realizing that in some odd way that life mimics yours. Maybe it's realizing that you are not living your life to the fullest, maybe it is realizing the humor in a dark situation.
Music and Movies -- hmmm maybe I should start a blog to review music and movies.
Maybe I love them because they remind me to slow down. Watching a story unfold of someone's life, realizing that in some odd way that life mimics yours. Maybe it's realizing that you are not living your life to the fullest, maybe it is realizing the humor in a dark situation.
Music and Movies -- hmmm maybe I should start a blog to review music and movies.
Friday, September 21, 2007
Friday Night Lights
Another football game gone and in the books. Although we lost the game, the memory of it being a warm beautiful fall night is burned into my memories. Watching Laine cheer, Evan running around playing football in the grass with his little friends and watching Bright interact with his friends and girlfriend.
This..........is what it is all about.
This..........is what it is all about.
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
Old Friends and Renewed Friendships
You would all be so proud of me tonight. I did the whole soccer Mom thing. Funny how I now say that like it is a chore when that phrase defined who I was with my older two children when they were Evan's age. However, now as a single Mom I don't always have the time (nor the patience) to do the whole "Mommy bonding" thing with other Mothers. For those of you who are new to my blog please read my previous blog on single parenting.
My "soccer Mom" routine now consists of looking at the calendar each morning to see who has what event each evening. Then planning my day to arrange how quickly I need to be home by to run what child where or to be able to be at one of their events. I arrive at these events still in my work clothes (professional and hip) while other Mothers sit comfortably on the bleachers in their jeans & t-shirts.
So this past weekend I received a call from an old friend (okay a friend). Old I mean by she was my neighbor when I was married to my ex. Her husband is still good "drinking buddies" with my ex and she is as well friends with my ex in-laws. Sheri is a wonderful woman whom to be honest I do miss her friendship. My divorce was complicated, messy, just plain icky. I left a man who was emotionally abusive my whole marriage, who physically abused me the last year, and has an alcohol problem. However, like most men who are like this they come off very sweet to others. My ex is often referred to as the sweetest man. I always get the "Oh my God how could you two divorce?". No one knew what went on behind the closed doors. Then when I finally left I was made out to be a woman who abandanded this "great man" and her kids. I was from a very small community and in my mind I was done. I moved to a larger town 20 miles away and I felt no need to justify myself. I wanted a fresh start. So I rarely went home and when I did I refused to bash my children's father as he had done to me.
Anyway Sheri calls me and invites Evan to "bring a friend night" at her son Dirk's Tae Kwan Do. Of course Dirk has already talked to Evan about this so I am pretty much stuck with going. She offers to pick me up and wants to take the boys out to dinner. See Sheri and I were pregnant together the summer of 2000 with our boys so we did have a bond. I agree although I have that pit in my stomach. I imagine all the horrible things she has heard about me and I stress about the whole thing most of my work day. In fact I think I came up with four or five reasons to cancel. However, I stepped up and went.
In the end - it was fine. We talked and although I struggled to find things to talk about (I mean can I talk about how happy I am with Rock Star to her?) it was nice to feel a part of the Mommy group. As we left she said "Lorelai I've missed this - I've missed you".
So I suppose in the end - maybe people realize that all things are not true. Or maybe they just are able to look past it. Will I ever be able to ask these two over for dinner and cards with Rock Star and I? I doubt it, but it will be nice to have a friendly face at school functions again.
My "soccer Mom" routine now consists of looking at the calendar each morning to see who has what event each evening. Then planning my day to arrange how quickly I need to be home by to run what child where or to be able to be at one of their events. I arrive at these events still in my work clothes (professional and hip) while other Mothers sit comfortably on the bleachers in their jeans & t-shirts.
So this past weekend I received a call from an old friend (okay a friend). Old I mean by she was my neighbor when I was married to my ex. Her husband is still good "drinking buddies" with my ex and she is as well friends with my ex in-laws. Sheri is a wonderful woman whom to be honest I do miss her friendship. My divorce was complicated, messy, just plain icky. I left a man who was emotionally abusive my whole marriage, who physically abused me the last year, and has an alcohol problem. However, like most men who are like this they come off very sweet to others. My ex is often referred to as the sweetest man. I always get the "Oh my God how could you two divorce?". No one knew what went on behind the closed doors. Then when I finally left I was made out to be a woman who abandanded this "great man" and her kids. I was from a very small community and in my mind I was done. I moved to a larger town 20 miles away and I felt no need to justify myself. I wanted a fresh start. So I rarely went home and when I did I refused to bash my children's father as he had done to me.
Anyway Sheri calls me and invites Evan to "bring a friend night" at her son Dirk's Tae Kwan Do. Of course Dirk has already talked to Evan about this so I am pretty much stuck with going. She offers to pick me up and wants to take the boys out to dinner. See Sheri and I were pregnant together the summer of 2000 with our boys so we did have a bond. I agree although I have that pit in my stomach. I imagine all the horrible things she has heard about me and I stress about the whole thing most of my work day. In fact I think I came up with four or five reasons to cancel. However, I stepped up and went.
In the end - it was fine. We talked and although I struggled to find things to talk about (I mean can I talk about how happy I am with Rock Star to her?) it was nice to feel a part of the Mommy group. As we left she said "Lorelai I've missed this - I've missed you".
So I suppose in the end - maybe people realize that all things are not true. Or maybe they just are able to look past it. Will I ever be able to ask these two over for dinner and cards with Rock Star and I? I doubt it, but it will be nice to have a friendly face at school functions again.
Saturday, September 15, 2007
Football Movies
What is it about a feel good football movie that gets me everytime? I just finished watching Invincible and damn it I ended up with tears in my eyes! I've seen Remember The Titans it seems like a thousand times and yet.....yup I still get watery eyes. Oooy!
Sunday, August 26, 2007
Sunday Morning Thoughts.........
I skipped church today. As the alarm clock went off and I realized that I not only didn't have any kids with me today, but Rock Star was also not around this weekend (he has his kids). I then smiled a bit of a devilish smiled and went soundly back to sleep in my VERY quite apartment. I was awoken a couple of hours later with a text message that read "miss u next to me this morning". Awww.....
Okay so I am up, I am having coffee and I am looking at the pile of paperwork in front of me. Oh....and the huge pile of Ebay I yet need to post. Guess I know what I am doing today. So before I start my day with that I decided to blog walk a while and found some great new blogs I can not wait to keep reading. I also decided to write a post of just a few random things on my mind.
1. Laine's first football game of the season she cheered at was this past Friday. Now for those of you who do not know I am a HUGE football fan. I could not wait to walk past the field to the bleachers, hear the sound of those boys crunching each other. But I also could not wait to see Laine cheer as this is one of her passions. Now it had been raining on and off all day so I came prepared with my umbrella and although it lightly rained on and off the 1st quarter and then a little heavier the 2nd quarter toward the end of the 2nd quarter it lightened up a bit. The boys were sliding everywhere, mud was flying.....it was a football players dream.....lol Then right after half time ended the wind picked up. Us parents looked at each other and rolled our eyes and we all said "At least it is warm - at least this is not October and it is freezing rain". Just about then the clouds opened up. Downpour was not the word - winds were blowing, umbrellas were upside down. Evan finally decided that playing in the rain was no longer fun. This was more monsoon like. And of course the game goes on as long as there is no lightening. So at 10:15pm we were finally walking back to our cars - completely soaked. As I had texted Rock Star he noted that his daughters cheer team does not cheer if it is like that outside. I texted back that they were wimps. So here is to my daughters cheer team!!!!
2. Fall is one of my favorite times of the year. I love the smell of the crisp leaves in the air, Halloween is by far my 2nd favorite holiday! Pumpkins, dried arrangements of corn stalks, mums.....ah I get a smile just thinking of those things. However, along with late summer and fall come my allergies. Yes seasonal hay fever! Ugh - the ragweed dries out and begins to float through the air, corn dust, soybean dust, you name it. The sneezing begins!
3. Speaking of allergies....last night Laine decides to drop by for a visit even though it is her weekend with her Dad. She calls me and tells me she will stop by in a while. Well a "while" comes and goes and no Laine. I figure by now she decided to do something with her friends. Then suddenly the door opens. There stands Laine with a tiny petite kitten. Oh NO! "Mommy look at her...isn't she precious?" "Yes Laine she IS adorable". (Laine calls me Mommy when she is wanting something) "Laine I am not keeping her here you will need to keep her at your Dad's" "Ok (sneeze) Mom, but (sneeze) isn't she cute" "Um yes Laine she is cute, but what are you going to do with her while you are at school?" "Oh...hmmm (sneeze) I didn't think about that" "Well you will have to keep her inside becuase the dogs at your Dad's will eat her in one chomp" "Okay (sneeze) Mom" by now I am laughing quite hard at her sneezing. It seems in her moment of weakness and not thinking of the future she seemed to forget that cats make her sneeze. She has this problem when we go to my Mother's house for any even. I was a good Mom though I took her to a late night run to Walmart to buy bowls and kitten food (I made her pay) and then promptly sent her off to her Dad's to show him the surprise.....hahahaha. I must admit this kitten (named Nina) was a charmer. She was not only a snuggler, but with the smallest bit of petting she started purring.
3. I am finally in my apartment. I just didn't see the need to pay for a house when I spend so little time there. The apartment Laine and Evan love and it is in a nice neighborhood. My long term goals are with Rock Star so I just didn't see a need to spend extra money on a house I do not intend to keep. Instead I'm saving the extra money in rent with the apartment toward the house Rock Star and I want to buy in a couple of years.
4. Go BEARS!!! Enough Said!
5. This week I decided to make this blog more of what I always dreamed of. I may not be the best writer in the world but writing clears my head. It seems to help me deal with whatever is going on at the moment. In the future weeks I will be researching how to join several blogging communities that I see elsewhere. I am also looking at hosting my own site. I just must commit to make time!
6. My new book purchase by one of my favorite authors Joyce Meyer is "Approval Addiction: Overcoming the Need to Please". Hello......yup that is me 100%. I can't wait to start reading!
Okay so I am up, I am having coffee and I am looking at the pile of paperwork in front of me. Oh....and the huge pile of Ebay I yet need to post. Guess I know what I am doing today. So before I start my day with that I decided to blog walk a while and found some great new blogs I can not wait to keep reading. I also decided to write a post of just a few random things on my mind.
1. Laine's first football game of the season she cheered at was this past Friday. Now for those of you who do not know I am a HUGE football fan. I could not wait to walk past the field to the bleachers, hear the sound of those boys crunching each other. But I also could not wait to see Laine cheer as this is one of her passions. Now it had been raining on and off all day so I came prepared with my umbrella and although it lightly rained on and off the 1st quarter and then a little heavier the 2nd quarter toward the end of the 2nd quarter it lightened up a bit. The boys were sliding everywhere, mud was flying.....it was a football players dream.....lol Then right after half time ended the wind picked up. Us parents looked at each other and rolled our eyes and we all said "At least it is warm - at least this is not October and it is freezing rain". Just about then the clouds opened up. Downpour was not the word - winds were blowing, umbrellas were upside down. Evan finally decided that playing in the rain was no longer fun. This was more monsoon like. And of course the game goes on as long as there is no lightening. So at 10:15pm we were finally walking back to our cars - completely soaked. As I had texted Rock Star he noted that his daughters cheer team does not cheer if it is like that outside. I texted back that they were wimps. So here is to my daughters cheer team!!!!
2. Fall is one of my favorite times of the year. I love the smell of the crisp leaves in the air, Halloween is by far my 2nd favorite holiday! Pumpkins, dried arrangements of corn stalks, mums.....ah I get a smile just thinking of those things. However, along with late summer and fall come my allergies. Yes seasonal hay fever! Ugh - the ragweed dries out and begins to float through the air, corn dust, soybean dust, you name it. The sneezing begins!
3. Speaking of allergies....last night Laine decides to drop by for a visit even though it is her weekend with her Dad. She calls me and tells me she will stop by in a while. Well a "while" comes and goes and no Laine. I figure by now she decided to do something with her friends. Then suddenly the door opens. There stands Laine with a tiny petite kitten. Oh NO! "Mommy look at her...isn't she precious?" "Yes Laine she IS adorable". (Laine calls me Mommy when she is wanting something) "Laine I am not keeping her here you will need to keep her at your Dad's" "Ok (sneeze) Mom, but (sneeze) isn't she cute" "Um yes Laine she is cute, but what are you going to do with her while you are at school?" "Oh...hmmm (sneeze) I didn't think about that" "Well you will have to keep her inside becuase the dogs at your Dad's will eat her in one chomp" "Okay (sneeze) Mom" by now I am laughing quite hard at her sneezing. It seems in her moment of weakness and not thinking of the future she seemed to forget that cats make her sneeze. She has this problem when we go to my Mother's house for any even. I was a good Mom though I took her to a late night run to Walmart to buy bowls and kitten food (I made her pay) and then promptly sent her off to her Dad's to show him the surprise.....hahahaha. I must admit this kitten (named Nina) was a charmer. She was not only a snuggler, but with the smallest bit of petting she started purring.
3. I am finally in my apartment. I just didn't see the need to pay for a house when I spend so little time there. The apartment Laine and Evan love and it is in a nice neighborhood. My long term goals are with Rock Star so I just didn't see a need to spend extra money on a house I do not intend to keep. Instead I'm saving the extra money in rent with the apartment toward the house Rock Star and I want to buy in a couple of years.
4. Go BEARS!!! Enough Said!
5. This week I decided to make this blog more of what I always dreamed of. I may not be the best writer in the world but writing clears my head. It seems to help me deal with whatever is going on at the moment. In the future weeks I will be researching how to join several blogging communities that I see elsewhere. I am also looking at hosting my own site. I just must commit to make time!
6. My new book purchase by one of my favorite authors Joyce Meyer is "Approval Addiction: Overcoming the Need to Please". Hello......yup that is me 100%. I can't wait to start reading!
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
Mondays To Remember
There are a couple of things on my mind to write about tonight. I had a hard time deciding on which to write about, so I tossed a coin. Below is what won.
Without going into too many details I work in the beauty industry. I am a sales rep for a very well known distributor in my state. The owners are quite well known all over the US as great business people who help our clients succeed. We distribute seven product lines, one being very VERY well known. You see their ads in fashion magazines and I would say 98% of women know who this is and several men do as well. The owner of this particular product line in quite famous as well. You see his face in the ads and he is often seen with famous actors such as Brad Pitt and other A list famous people.
For weeks I have been told how he is very down to earth, very giving, etc.
Last night I had the opportunity to meet this man. Now this was my first what I would call "A" list celebrity that I had ever had the opportunity to meet. On one had I was a bit excited to be a part of this event taking place and yet on the other it meant another night I had to find someone to watch Evan. The Mom in me was torn by the career woman and this is not a pretty place to be.
The event was in the city. As I parked my car and stepped out I stood tall, I took in the wonderful summer air. I straightened my little black dress and pulled the strap up on my high heel. I began to walk the four block walk to the venue. The venue is situated in the middle of brownstone homes with iron fences, cobblestone walkways and streets with old street lighting. Shops have been redone in the latest brick & stucco patterns. I walk past two beautiful fountains. I passed little martini bars and coffee shops filled with people relaxing after work. I walked along the cobblestone walkway smiling and saying hello to the patrons sitting in the outdoor tables. As I walked I ran into others on their way to the event. Each of us in our black dresses, men in their black pants and hip oxford shirts. WE all looked quite fab! I finally stopped in my heels and looked around and took in the moment. This small town girl from a town that is no larger of 500 people is here. HERE! In the middle of this moment. It felt a bit story book.
I am not really one to hang on a famous name or person. My heroes in life are not famous people, but at this moment I must admit it felt pretty good. I.....ME....yeah ME. I was in the middle of these beautiful people and I knew at the end of the evening I would be the one sitting at the table with the man himself not the majority of people walking next to me. Yeah this was a fun evening and gave me even more to want and achieve for. I must admit a little taste of that life can leave you wanting more of it.
So okay I am glad I went, although this will not be the last time I get to spend time and see this man as working with this company means many more events to come. Oh and Yes! What everyone said was true, he gave a wonderful speech and was very gracious. I watched him give up his seat for a woman he did not know with a baby and I watched him take time for each person to say thank you for selling my product. He wants you to believe in him and the product.
Wonder if you all can guess who this is................
Without going into too many details I work in the beauty industry. I am a sales rep for a very well known distributor in my state. The owners are quite well known all over the US as great business people who help our clients succeed. We distribute seven product lines, one being very VERY well known. You see their ads in fashion magazines and I would say 98% of women know who this is and several men do as well. The owner of this particular product line in quite famous as well. You see his face in the ads and he is often seen with famous actors such as Brad Pitt and other A list famous people.
For weeks I have been told how he is very down to earth, very giving, etc.
Last night I had the opportunity to meet this man. Now this was my first what I would call "A" list celebrity that I had ever had the opportunity to meet. On one had I was a bit excited to be a part of this event taking place and yet on the other it meant another night I had to find someone to watch Evan. The Mom in me was torn by the career woman and this is not a pretty place to be.
The event was in the city. As I parked my car and stepped out I stood tall, I took in the wonderful summer air. I straightened my little black dress and pulled the strap up on my high heel. I began to walk the four block walk to the venue. The venue is situated in the middle of brownstone homes with iron fences, cobblestone walkways and streets with old street lighting. Shops have been redone in the latest brick & stucco patterns. I walk past two beautiful fountains. I passed little martini bars and coffee shops filled with people relaxing after work. I walked along the cobblestone walkway smiling and saying hello to the patrons sitting in the outdoor tables. As I walked I ran into others on their way to the event. Each of us in our black dresses, men in their black pants and hip oxford shirts. WE all looked quite fab! I finally stopped in my heels and looked around and took in the moment. This small town girl from a town that is no larger of 500 people is here. HERE! In the middle of this moment. It felt a bit story book.
I am not really one to hang on a famous name or person. My heroes in life are not famous people, but at this moment I must admit it felt pretty good. I.....ME....yeah ME. I was in the middle of these beautiful people and I knew at the end of the evening I would be the one sitting at the table with the man himself not the majority of people walking next to me. Yeah this was a fun evening and gave me even more to want and achieve for. I must admit a little taste of that life can leave you wanting more of it.
So okay I am glad I went, although this will not be the last time I get to spend time and see this man as working with this company means many more events to come. Oh and Yes! What everyone said was true, he gave a wonderful speech and was very gracious. I watched him give up his seat for a woman he did not know with a baby and I watched him take time for each person to say thank you for selling my product. He wants you to believe in him and the product.
Wonder if you all can guess who this is................
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