You must be thinking what the hell kind of a blog title is that.....ah keep reading my friends.
2 tickets to Harry Potter - $14.75
popcorn & two sodas - $11.25
having to sit through 7 minutes of commercials before the previews......ANNOYING!
It seems it has become a delicate timing issue to arrive at the movie theater in time to see the preview but miss the commercials.
At first the "hidden commercials" came a few years ago. They were the ones with the mini movies for coke etc. Then last year American Express had the Robert Deniro and Ellen Degeneres ones. Okay I can stomach both sets of those, they didn't annoy me. However, when I have to sit through a 60 visual throw up of Snuggle softener, Fe-breeze, and something else well I get simply pissed. Where am I at???? Home in the middle of the day with soap operas on? Seriously! Oh and then there is the Vince Gill sell out.......not that I am a huge Vince Gill fan, but I did respect him as a musician.....that is until now, after I was forced to sit through 60 seconds (it felt like 3 minutes) of him singing some fucking underwear ballad with the Apple from the Fruit of the Loom brand. Did someone, somewhere find this amusing???? Worse yet I realize that I PAID to see this!
Thank God we finally got to the previews where once I saw the preview for Get Smart it totally changed my mood. Harry Potter by the way was COMPLETELY AWESOME!
Friday, July 27, 2007
Music Within My Soul
Music is a daily part of my life. It can pump me up or relax me. Since 4th grade I have been involved with music, I play piano, I sing, and I date a man who has been a musician for 25+years. I have and continue to pass my love and passion on to my children.
Now I could go on about my love, but what I really want to do is tell you about a favorite movie.
School of Rock - ok so Jack Black is not for everyone. But this movie is awesome! The part that you can currently see on a commercial where he is teaching the drummer how to play the drum beat. How excited he gets when that kid gets it (even though it doesn't sound quite right yet).....that is love. The love of passing on the passion of music.
My high school band teacher was a tame Jack Black, he was young and fresh out of college. He was passionate about music, he brought us not only the classics but the current fads.
I think I love this movie for the simple fact of there is a rock star in all of us a bit. In our cars, in our showers, alone cleaning the house! I'm the girl with ACDC, Jack Johnson, Def Leppard, John Mayer, Disturbed, Enya, Mozart, Dean Martin among others on my Ipod.
Here is to finding your love of music......
Now I could go on about my love, but what I really want to do is tell you about a favorite movie.
School of Rock - ok so Jack Black is not for everyone. But this movie is awesome! The part that you can currently see on a commercial where he is teaching the drummer how to play the drum beat. How excited he gets when that kid gets it (even though it doesn't sound quite right yet).....that is love. The love of passing on the passion of music.
My high school band teacher was a tame Jack Black, he was young and fresh out of college. He was passionate about music, he brought us not only the classics but the current fads.
I think I love this movie for the simple fact of there is a rock star in all of us a bit. In our cars, in our showers, alone cleaning the house! I'm the girl with ACDC, Jack Johnson, Def Leppard, John Mayer, Disturbed, Enya, Mozart, Dean Martin among others on my Ipod.
Here is to finding your love of music......
Bad Blogger Bad
I know, I know I have been a bad blogger lately. However, with the final stretch of my training and dealing with Ex Husband issues I have not had any energy nor creative fibers flowing through my veins.
Yesterday officially marked my end of training. I am now out and about in my territory and I could not be happier. Tonight Evan and I are spending some much needed Mom and Son time together! I'm thinking we'll catch a movie a bit later.
I did spend last weekend with Rock Star which was just a wonderful quiet adult weekend. Late night movies, drinks and games of cribbage on the deck by the moonlight (or deck lights), mornings spent sleeping in followed by morning coffee and sharing a newspaper, talks of future plans & the kids, planning a mini vacation for just us. Some much needed down time!!! He has a gig tonight and although I usually go to all gigs, tonight is a Mommy night for me and I am fine with that. Rock Star will text me all through the gig and then we'll talk when he gets home late as he has kids tonight too.
Upcoming topic.......my first true love.....music!
Yesterday officially marked my end of training. I am now out and about in my territory and I could not be happier. Tonight Evan and I are spending some much needed Mom and Son time together! I'm thinking we'll catch a movie a bit later.
I did spend last weekend with Rock Star which was just a wonderful quiet adult weekend. Late night movies, drinks and games of cribbage on the deck by the moonlight (or deck lights), mornings spent sleeping in followed by morning coffee and sharing a newspaper, talks of future plans & the kids, planning a mini vacation for just us. Some much needed down time!!! He has a gig tonight and although I usually go to all gigs, tonight is a Mommy night for me and I am fine with that. Rock Star will text me all through the gig and then we'll talk when he gets home late as he has kids tonight too.
Upcoming topic.......my first true love.....music!
Thursday, July 19, 2007
The Dark Side
Although my last couple of posts have been light and fun one of the reasons for me to begin to blog was to be able to journal my thoughts and feelings.
Without going into a huge history of my life up until this point I will try to give a little back ground. Pregnant at 17, married at 17 (we will say pushed that way from my parents), married for 14 years, now divorced for about 4 1/2. Ex husband was/is an alcoholic, mentally abusive and in the end physically abusive.
My ex husband has not moved on. He has not dated in the last four years nor is he looking. I am the woman who few people know that my ex husband is a nut. I still get phone calls at 2am, 4am, etc telling me I am a whore, bitch, c*nt, etc. Currently there are 14 saved messages on my cell phone saved.
Yes I know I need an order of protection. I promise I am working on it. However, it has only been in the last year that I have been of the right enough mind to save those voice mails etc. You see he beat me down so much mentally that I thought I deserved to hear that stuff. Again it is a very long story.
The reason for this post -- I'm having a down day or maybe a down week. For the last week The Ex has been on his "bi-polar down swing" (what the kids and I call it). This is where he yells screams, etc. What makes this difficult is that I have been traveling and staying in hotels for the last three weeks with the training for my new job. He is so consumed with his feelings that I have not been able to talk to him about care for my 6 year old. It is awful. Monday & Tuesday I drove back home (a three hour drive) just so I could make sure my 6 year old was ok. I mean Laine can do fine, but she is 16 and this IS NOT her job. The guilt has consumed me this week. I took this job because it was an immediate 13k raise from my former job and it is commission so I know I will make more than the 13k in the near future. I took the job because it was a HUGE career opportunity. Although after training my overnight travel will be limited to three nights a month (one each week) right now I'm nuts. I have one more week of this left and I am so worried about next week as both Bright & Laine leave for their teen church camp Sunday which means the responsibility falls on The Ex.
Just an example -- last week I get a call from Laine -- her Dad had not come home from work and we both knew he had stopped at a bar. That night I had her take Evan to my grannies to stay, but her and Bright stayed at their Dad's. At 12:20 that night her Dad calls her. He wants her to come get him. He is at the police station as he had been pulled over for a DUI. WTF? he calls his 16 year old daughter to drive over an hour to a police station to pick him up at 12:20 at night? I was so enraged!!! This is just the tip of what I have documented in the last year. Yet the man calls me daily to tell me how everything is my fault and why don't I love him and why must I punish him etc.
The most difficult part of all of this is trying to make sure he is on track enough to arrange the child care and who is picking up our youngest from the sitter. I call to talk about that and all he wants to talk about is how awful I am.
Regardless of the details in the end I have to do what is best. I have put off going into court with an order of protection long enough. I must do this for not only me, but so that I may obtain full custody instead of joint and have some control with my children. It isn't that I want to take the kids away from him. That is not it at all. I need this to happen so that when I am out of town I can arrange for Garrett to stay with Rock Star or his Mother if I need to. This way I know he is safe and being loved on. Again I do not want to take time away from him (not that he would care since I have a page full of documentation where he went to the bar instead of spending time with his kids), but I need to be able to say to him regardless of how you feel about Rock Star Evan will be staying with him until I get back into town.
In the end this subject is deep and this will not be the last post on this subject. I continue to pray for God to help him, but after four years God still has not helped with it. As we all know we have to WANT to help ourselves.
Until next time....
L
Without going into a huge history of my life up until this point I will try to give a little back ground. Pregnant at 17, married at 17 (we will say pushed that way from my parents), married for 14 years, now divorced for about 4 1/2. Ex husband was/is an alcoholic, mentally abusive and in the end physically abusive.
My ex husband has not moved on. He has not dated in the last four years nor is he looking. I am the woman who few people know that my ex husband is a nut. I still get phone calls at 2am, 4am, etc telling me I am a whore, bitch, c*nt, etc. Currently there are 14 saved messages on my cell phone saved.
Yes I know I need an order of protection. I promise I am working on it. However, it has only been in the last year that I have been of the right enough mind to save those voice mails etc. You see he beat me down so much mentally that I thought I deserved to hear that stuff. Again it is a very long story.
The reason for this post -- I'm having a down day or maybe a down week. For the last week The Ex has been on his "bi-polar down swing" (what the kids and I call it). This is where he yells screams, etc. What makes this difficult is that I have been traveling and staying in hotels for the last three weeks with the training for my new job. He is so consumed with his feelings that I have not been able to talk to him about care for my 6 year old. It is awful. Monday & Tuesday I drove back home (a three hour drive) just so I could make sure my 6 year old was ok. I mean Laine can do fine, but she is 16 and this IS NOT her job. The guilt has consumed me this week. I took this job because it was an immediate 13k raise from my former job and it is commission so I know I will make more than the 13k in the near future. I took the job because it was a HUGE career opportunity. Although after training my overnight travel will be limited to three nights a month (one each week) right now I'm nuts. I have one more week of this left and I am so worried about next week as both Bright & Laine leave for their teen church camp Sunday which means the responsibility falls on The Ex.
Just an example -- last week I get a call from Laine -- her Dad had not come home from work and we both knew he had stopped at a bar. That night I had her take Evan to my grannies to stay, but her and Bright stayed at their Dad's. At 12:20 that night her Dad calls her. He wants her to come get him. He is at the police station as he had been pulled over for a DUI. WTF? he calls his 16 year old daughter to drive over an hour to a police station to pick him up at 12:20 at night? I was so enraged!!! This is just the tip of what I have documented in the last year. Yet the man calls me daily to tell me how everything is my fault and why don't I love him and why must I punish him etc.
The most difficult part of all of this is trying to make sure he is on track enough to arrange the child care and who is picking up our youngest from the sitter. I call to talk about that and all he wants to talk about is how awful I am.
Regardless of the details in the end I have to do what is best. I have put off going into court with an order of protection long enough. I must do this for not only me, but so that I may obtain full custody instead of joint and have some control with my children. It isn't that I want to take the kids away from him. That is not it at all. I need this to happen so that when I am out of town I can arrange for Garrett to stay with Rock Star or his Mother if I need to. This way I know he is safe and being loved on. Again I do not want to take time away from him (not that he would care since I have a page full of documentation where he went to the bar instead of spending time with his kids), but I need to be able to say to him regardless of how you feel about Rock Star Evan will be staying with him until I get back into town.
In the end this subject is deep and this will not be the last post on this subject. I continue to pray for God to help him, but after four years God still has not helped with it. As we all know we have to WANT to help ourselves.
Until next time....
L
Monday, July 16, 2007
Sunday Morning Drives
I had a work function yesterday that required a two hour morning drive to the event. In the rush of grabbing my purse and putting on my heels I forgot to grab my cd's. So I quickly started flipping channels on the radio. Then suddenly there he was....Casey Kasem!
Holy Shit! I thought he is still alive wait alive and STILL on the radio? Why did I think goofy Ryan Seacrest took over his position? Wow! I could not help but to keep the channel there for a while and listen. BTW didn't Casey's top 40 used to be on Saturday mornings? I believe I clearly remember listening and it could not have been on Sundays because I would have been in church. When did they switch to Sundays?
I just remember my teen years, especially my early teen years (13 - 16), listening to him. I'm sure you all remember the long distant dedications, but do you remember having to listen all morning to catch the ONE song you wanted to "tape" on the tape deck? Remember you had to press record when the song started and stop it when it ended and you just prayed and hoped that Casey didn't talk over the last part of the song. Gosh -- I feel old now!!!
On another note, yesterdays long distant dedication was to a dead person. Hmmm just how long distant do his dedications go???
Holy Shit! I thought he is still alive wait alive and STILL on the radio? Why did I think goofy Ryan Seacrest took over his position? Wow! I could not help but to keep the channel there for a while and listen. BTW didn't Casey's top 40 used to be on Saturday mornings? I believe I clearly remember listening and it could not have been on Sundays because I would have been in church. When did they switch to Sundays?
I just remember my teen years, especially my early teen years (13 - 16), listening to him. I'm sure you all remember the long distant dedications, but do you remember having to listen all morning to catch the ONE song you wanted to "tape" on the tape deck? Remember you had to press record when the song started and stop it when it ended and you just prayed and hoped that Casey didn't talk over the last part of the song. Gosh -- I feel old now!!!
On another note, yesterdays long distant dedication was to a dead person. Hmmm just how long distant do his dedications go???
Saturday, July 14, 2007
Saturday Nights Alright
It's Saturday night and I am home alone with a glass of Pino blog walking and composing this entry. Wow! Super exciting huh?
Truth be told I should be working on Ebay stuff, but I just can not seem to get in the mood. Rock Star and I decided to take a road trip to Cleveland OH the last week in August and we thought we would up our item listing on Ebay to help put a little extra in the vacation budget. Might make the difference between the Fairfield and the Hilton. lol
The kids are with The Ex this weekend due to his family reunion. Normally I would be fine with it but since I have made the job switch and I have been traveling for the last three weeks out of town training I am a little sad over missing them. At least they were able to come with me for the week last week so it isn't like I am not seeing them. Thank God for Rock Star and my Granny helping me out through this.
Now normally on a weekend when the kids are with The Ex, I would be spending the weekend with Rock Star, but he took his kids on a mini vacation this weekend. So alas here I am alone on a Saturday night with my laptop and my glass of Pino. Honestly I must say I am quite content with that.
Speaking of Cleveland....does anyone know if there is anything else to do there OTHER than the Rock & Roll Hall of Fame?
Truth be told I should be working on Ebay stuff, but I just can not seem to get in the mood. Rock Star and I decided to take a road trip to Cleveland OH the last week in August and we thought we would up our item listing on Ebay to help put a little extra in the vacation budget. Might make the difference between the Fairfield and the Hilton. lol
The kids are with The Ex this weekend due to his family reunion. Normally I would be fine with it but since I have made the job switch and I have been traveling for the last three weeks out of town training I am a little sad over missing them. At least they were able to come with me for the week last week so it isn't like I am not seeing them. Thank God for Rock Star and my Granny helping me out through this.
Now normally on a weekend when the kids are with The Ex, I would be spending the weekend with Rock Star, but he took his kids on a mini vacation this weekend. So alas here I am alone on a Saturday night with my laptop and my glass of Pino. Honestly I must say I am quite content with that.
Speaking of Cleveland....does anyone know if there is anything else to do there OTHER than the Rock & Roll Hall of Fame?
Friday, July 13, 2007
Summer & TBall
Tomorrow is the last t-ball game of the season for my little guy. Although I must admit that with the new job I am grateful that the season is closing. I live in a community where there are many stay at home mothers. Which is wonderful as I was one with my older two children. However, all season I have struggled, rushed, sped through traffic all to make it home by 4:30 to pick up my son and drive him to a practice that starts at 5pm.
Yes folks I said 5pm. What working parent is off work in time to get their child to a 5pm practice? Not many, I thank the lord my job is accommodating enough that I can work my schedule around that. However, as the season comes to an end I have to wonder how many little boys did not get to play tball this year because their parents work. I never connected with any of the other Mothers. In fact they seemed to avoid me like the plague when I showed up at practices in my business/dress attire. I must say it was intimidating to sit there alone and try to jump into conversations and quickly be shut out of them. One day I wanted to just scream..."HEY! I am a parent too, I am interested and have things to say on what you are talking about". Then as I sat there a little longer and watched my son wave from the field I thought "Fuck it". At 35 why do I feel I need the approval of these Mothers? I have good girlfriends and I am a good Mom. I am doing THE BEST I can and although I would enjoy to be able to stay at home each day with my son I am doing what is best for him by working and providing for him. I still bake cookies, we still play games, we still read. Even more I wondered why these women felt such a need to exclude me. I may never understand.
That being said it all comes down to finding a sport program that can accommodate the working parents. Fall soccer season is beginning and I am looking at taking my son into the next town over for soccer just due to the fact that their practices do not start until 6pm.
Yes folks I said 5pm. What working parent is off work in time to get their child to a 5pm practice? Not many, I thank the lord my job is accommodating enough that I can work my schedule around that. However, as the season comes to an end I have to wonder how many little boys did not get to play tball this year because their parents work. I never connected with any of the other Mothers. In fact they seemed to avoid me like the plague when I showed up at practices in my business/dress attire. I must say it was intimidating to sit there alone and try to jump into conversations and quickly be shut out of them. One day I wanted to just scream..."HEY! I am a parent too, I am interested and have things to say on what you are talking about". Then as I sat there a little longer and watched my son wave from the field I thought "Fuck it". At 35 why do I feel I need the approval of these Mothers? I have good girlfriends and I am a good Mom. I am doing THE BEST I can and although I would enjoy to be able to stay at home each day with my son I am doing what is best for him by working and providing for him. I still bake cookies, we still play games, we still read. Even more I wondered why these women felt such a need to exclude me. I may never understand.
That being said it all comes down to finding a sport program that can accommodate the working parents. Fall soccer season is beginning and I am looking at taking my son into the next town over for soccer just due to the fact that their practices do not start until 6pm.
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